I admit it. I was incredibly naive as to exactly what motherhood meant prior to having a child. Despite my experience doing childcare with kids at risk, I forgot that even though that job was exhausting, I got to go home at the end of the day and rest, not having to think about anything but eating and perhaps having a bath.
The first few weeks with my baby, I didn't need sleep. I was on such a high that I could take on anything. I didn't eat as much as I previously did either, despite spending around 600 calories a day breast feeding. This has helped move some of the baby weight, however I have a long way to go before I can fit into my pretty dresses. But I'm not naked, so loosing weight can happen when it happens. Anyway...
What has happened though? I've hit a wall. My body is giving all my nutrients to my baby, so I come second. I also come second when it comes to sleeping and everything else. I'm not complaining- I love her more than I thought I could love anything. My heart just explodes when I look at her. I'd give her everything.
7 weeks of minimal sleep is bound to lead to exhaustion though. And so, I'm suffering flu like symptoms and some dizziness. I've also been dehydrated, despite drinking tonnes of water. I've had to take out my nape piercing as it was swollen and sore. Is this my body forcing me to conventionally 'grow up'?
I was quite used to having a lot of 'me' time prior to mum life. Doing what I wanted, when I wanted. I can still do most of these things, but they can't be exactly spontaneous. They require some thought and pre-planning and take much longer in terms of time management.
Now, meals often get thrown together. I've inadvertently cut my food intake down (I now eat just three meals plus a snack instead of 6 meals or so- haha!). Things that are simple, cheap and time efficient.
This is one of my favourite breakfasts. It's easy, thoughtless, but filling and delicious.
Cut up a banana. Throw on some sultanas and a dollop of peanut butter. Done. Obviously, variations can and do occur. I poured some maple syrup on it this morning.
I also like to make breakfast jars when I have the time. I usually make 5 at a time and they often feature overnight oats or chia pudding. They keep for about a week.
Keeping pre-made salad jars, plenty of fresh fruit and soup in the fridge is a life saver too. The trick is to keep these things stocked up. I've hit this wall because I forgot about my fruit and veg friends and I started eating bread like there is no tomorrow. I love bread but it doesn't contain all the vitamins and nutrients I need right now. I'm spending the day filling myself with freshness, taking naps with my baby and reminding myself that I'm doing a good job and that it's ok to be tired.
I can now say I'm a responsible adult. I'm responsible for her. I'm responsible for making sure she's fed, clothed, clean, educated and most importantly feels safe and feels loved.